I m thinking since then, is it really related.....

After my first past regression session.... I am thinking more... more on who was the person I saw in those visions.... I could feel that he is the one, who is present in my current life.... and i can really feel that he is around..... but if i get a little practical, i was waiting for that guy whole my life and cause he was married in his past he will never accept me.... so have to go on all alone and have to learn and accept things as it comes my way.... he was there to care, or to pretend to care....i am not even sure of that... Feelings from other people like my family shared and have the same warmth for me... maybe the feelings i had for that person.. he never had anything for me.... and i was just fooling around myself in a hope to see him back... i was in pain, he wasn't there and if you love somebody care automatically shows that is not something technical that u have to wait for.... i m just acting crazy now... i feel all these past life thing is just my way to blame my past life for my present life, just because i have done mistakes in my present life rather than accepting it i m just being to modest and finding someone to blame....

I m not a great relationship builder or i don't know how to deal with such situation when somebody cares about you and you tend to avoid that person and you show care to that person who avoids you, that's human tendency..... people who will read it and who know me well will say Jigyasa is flirty, but I am not thats just my style of conveying and expressing my feelings to people... i don't know how can people get practical and professional when it comes to love ..... love is in itself so expressive... u gotta feel it, not just by saying I LOVE U on professional basis makes u feel that u r in love... Stop fooling around yourself.. first ask urself..... do you really love that person or u like him and u just want to be with him.... there is a hell lot of difference between LOVE, LIKE, BEING WITH..... Love is a feeling which one can discover by it touch and cuddleness, Like is something u think about that person in a certain manner and Being with means you like his company or it might include physical experience....

So i think rather than just saying around to people that i love him u should first ask urself.... do u really love him that you can wait for him till eternity.....

Past Regression Session

Who was I?

An actress, a dancer or a person who was a social animal..... I think everybody in their lifetime thinks what were they in their past life? But somehow today they are so busy that they can't actually recall and do not have that spare time to think about such stuff.... One of my friend is a Tarot card reader and an astrologer.... we have been friends or a long time... he understand me as that is his work to do so.....I was easily convinced that the problems you face today in your present life have some or the other connection with your past life and that is why our inner conscious knows that where are we wrong but we all tend to avoid it.... as my name suggest Jigyasa -Curiosity... I always wanted to know what was i actually in my past life and then I will be able to understand why LOVE IS UPSET with me....Is that just my misconception or it is really related to my past life....

SESSION 1:

Late night around 1 in the darkest hour of the night.... a gal looking for answers, with a confused mind, asking god and herself WHY ME? That was me still not clear, but wanted to peep into my past life and see what exactly happened over there..... Once i start writing what experience i had let me warn u all it will sound stupid and crazy... but that how it was...... first vision..... i was lying on a bed weeping myself out....i was wearing a red colored saree in a bengali style with full on jewellery.... i was crying, weeping so loud that in that big house nobody was there to listen or help out.... .... I was into my past life, i can be so sure because while being in my subconscious i was crying...... who did it?? what was the reason i was crying for? all these questions were going on in my subconscious mind.... it was a man in my past life who had my heart and it was my birthday.....that feeling which i had was bad, that how can that happen to me.... but it did happened... i had an arrange marriage... he was a young, royal, strong, charismatic, long hair, mustache and a mole and a self made person.. i respected him.. i loved him... and adding to this he was womenizer, that i came to know after 3 years of my marriage and when i was not able to keep him happy... and for me i was me... i had big bright eyes... full of kajal and dreams that someday my prince will come and take me away from all these sorrows of my life... before i got married.. i had the same family which i have right now... and even after 5 years of marriage i had no kids and was all alone in my big Havelli.....that night i decided to run away i was in love with my best friend because he used to care about me in such a manner which i expected my husband to do so... he was there that night... laughing and giggling and try to peep inside that door in where my dreams were shattered and i was all alone.....i can relate that guy from my present life.... he was married in his past life... we never had a conversation as such but it all was the eyes job... i dnt know why i used to look at him with so much of love and respect and wanted him to care about me that way.... he felt too for i can... i can easily feel that by his touch, the warmth in his eyes... the love..... i used to write poems for him... but was never able to pass on to him.... sounds crazy!!!.... having a husband whom i loved so much and writing letters to my best friends sounds as crazy as i was thinking after i came out of my first session..... my eyes were heavy... my head was paining... i was again and again thinking about it....i was feeling the volcano of feelings were there was betrayal, love, care, waiting for someone, feeling happy for someone and felt that what were the reason i was alive.... my hands were shaky....i was speechless just crying my heart out and no one was there....

Life Saver

Mark was walking home from school one day when he noticed that the boy ahead of him had tripped and dropped all the books he was carrying, alogn with two sweaters, a baseball bat, a glove and a small tape recorder. Mark knelt down and helped the boy pick up the scattered articles.Since they were going the same way, he helped to carry part of the burden. As they walked, Mark discovered the boy's name was Bill, that he loved video games, baseball and history, he was having a lot of trouble with his other subjects and that he had just broken up with his girlfriend. MArk went home after dropping Bill at his house. They continued to see each other around school, had lunch together once or twice, and then both graduated from junior high school. They ended up on the same high school, where they had brief contact over the years. Finally the long-awaited senior year came. Three weeks before graduation, Bill asked Mark if they could talk. Bill reminded him of the day tears ago when they first met. " Do you ever wonder why I was carrying so many things home that day?" asked Bill. "You see, I cleaned out my locker because I didn't want to leave a mess for anyone else. I had stored away some of my mother's sleeping pills and I was going home to commit suicide. But after we spent some time together talking and laughing , I realised that if I had killed myself, I would have missed that time and so many others that might follow. So you see Mark, when you picked up my books that day you did a lot more. You saved my life." - John W Schlatter, Speaking tree

After reading this story I feel so proud to share this story... as once even I had a plan to do the same as Bill but then life takes you somewhere else... maybe it was Bill's destiny to meet Mark .... but then god is always their to show a perfect.. sometime imperfect way to us, to guide us, through the way of destiny.. I think everybody have experienced this kind of situation in their life and I hope somebody was there to help you out....